“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope.” ― Thomas Merton
It's a war.
Not the usual variety, but the inner terrain.
You know, where you know how you would like it to be, but it's never that way.
(Oh God, how I wish I could reconcile the life I wish for, versus the life I've inherited...)
But perhaps if it were otherwise, we'd find something else to despair about or condemn.
I don't know about you, but apart from wanting to fix everything, it seems there's never a day where something feels out of kilter with a life of serenity, peace and contemplation.
I know this is terribly vague, but what I'm getting at is the fact that we see the world as one thing but experience 'it' as something else.
And I don't mean to correct what we've got but to be at peace with the way things are and not constantly overreact.
If you look back at your own life, are you trying to recreate what you had, or envision and manifest something anew? In my case, it's certainly not the former and, as regards the latter, it's not a case of work in progress but, instead, making sense of why things seem so bloody hard.
But, of course, it's me ... or rather my reaction to the present moment or situation.
If I have a desire for anything, it's to break asunder these traumatic habits (for me and everyone else) and to be at peace with how things are and everything around me.