“Everyone of us is shadowed by an illusory person: a false self..We are not very good at recognizing illusions, least of all the ones we cherish about ourselves. (34) Contemplation is not and cannot be a function of this external self. There is an irreducible opposition between the deep transcendent self that awakens only in contemplation, and the superficial, external self which we commonly identify with the first person singular.(7) Our reality, our true self, is hidden in what appears to us to be nothingness....We can rise above this unreality and recover our hidden reality....(281) God Himself begins to live in me not only as my Creator but as my other and true self. (41).” - Thomas Merton, New Seeds of ContemplationWe live in a world of excess. In the process, it leaves us bereft of any sense of who we are or what we stand for.
For many people even to consider who they truly are is too scary. It's much better to fit in!
My journey will never be done, but at least there's an awakening to something bigger than my egoic tendencies - take this, grab that, differentiate this and make what we can from the situation.
If you feel the drawn to something bigger than your job, your role or your personhood then you're not alone. But don't just feel the pull of the true Self, do something about it.
I know what you're thinking: "What's this guy talking about?" In truth, it's very simple: to become the most of you, you have to be prepared to die before you die.
If you can reach that place then you stand a chance of connecting with the higher Self.