Life from life
“If you're reading this...
Congratulations, you're alive.
If that's not something to smile about,
then I don't know what is.”
― Chad Sugg, Monsters Under Your Head
Life flows through us, daily.
But of course, as the recent passing of Brian has reminded me, one day it ends.
We all know this, right?
There is, of course, the full spectrum of life and living:
For some, they eat it up — it's lived at a million miles an hour.
For others, it's an insipid decline — a slow suicide if you will.
And for the rest of us, I'm not sure — hit and miss.
In my younger days, I was on a mission but if it was not already clear, my proverbial ladder was leaning against the wrong wall(s).
Dumb! Plain dumb.
I'm not going anywhere? Oh sure, like the rest of us, I'm caught up in the vicissitudes of life, but I don't judge it good, bad or indifferent.
It just is.
To many people that sounds plain soppy, not exciting enough and, well, a waste of a life.
I get it.
And I'd be lying if, sometimes, I'm not seized by my old egoic self who wants to accept another torturous mission: I was raised to believe that only if something was hard, real hard, was I actually living. You know the drill: blood, sweat and lots of tears. From where I sit, that raison d'être is still alive and well and truly kicking — e.g. 'think positive', 'JFDI' and 'persistence is your bedfellow for all eternity'.
I don't buy it.
To live doesn't mean to be burnt up with desire, lack or a need to beat life into submission.
Hey, but what do I know? I'm just an ordinary bloke, bashing out a few words from his little office in an incy-wincy village in England.
However, one thing the last decade or so has taught me (since I fell off my career perch) is that we're not in charge of any of this despite thinking otherwise. (There really is no homunculus — i.e. 'me' — directing the show.) Much like my precious River Avon, we go where we go, do what we do and have the interests and predilections that we have. If we want to climb another mountain, metaphorically or otherwise, then we will. If we want to sit completely still and contemplate life, then, again, we will.
I find that utterly liberating and not the least bit fatalistic
If I needed a mantra, then I'd revert to the quote that adorns most of my online profiles:
"Be — drop becoming." — Osho
I know, hardly the most exciting in the world but when I'm in that state of connectedness — actually I can't be anything else — life is life. There's nothing else. Sure, sometimes I feel in the sewer and other times on top of the world but that's how things flow; and as churlish as it sounds, at least I'm here to experience the full range of emotion.
Yes, that's it.
At least I'm here (for now) to experience life in all it's turned on, tuned in and magnificent ways.
What a blast.
Onwards as I keep saying — however that looks.
Blessings and much love, Ju
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