Let the light shine
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” ― Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum
There's a lot said about the shadow life. In fact, if you spend time on Twitter or, even, Instagram, you'd think we were all broken shards of darkness.
And, yes, I'm not denying it's in the mix — I call it Black Dog.
But it's not all of us, and, in fact, if we open our hearts to the majesty of life everlasting, there's a chance we might feel our way towards a brand new world.
Sorry, that sounds a little too prosaic even for my taste. What I'm pointing to, which I've been musing on since sharing my thoughts yesterday on the symptoms of bipolar disorder, is to consider if there's a way of acknowledging not just the bad parts but also our . Better still, to recognise that when we don't pay attention (as in my case) to the constant negative chatter, there's a rich, warm and loving place located within and about us.
I find the easiest way to access this beautiful place is through silence; it's the best antidote to the vicissitudes of our darker life. When you've nothing much on your mind, less still a cacophony of self-doubting thoughts, it's amazing how life suddenly opens out.
I've said before that I should write more about love, and whilst I accept this little piece doesn't deal with the more obvious symbols and/or feelings of love, I think now is the perfect time in all our lives to consider how love could and must fundamentally change our lives. I think of it like this: we need to fall in love with everything of us, even or especially those parts we deem sub-standard. In my case, I see how easy it is to be hard on myself but (FFS) it's so insignificant in the overall scheme of things. Not just that but I feel, instinctively, I've still got so much to offer to my family, my friends and the world at large.
And if that's not something to be immensely grateful for I don't know what is.
Enjoy your Monday.
Blessings and deep bows,