I am Ego
"I'm right — always."
Don't worry, I'm not going to insult you or your intelligence and tell you something you already know but ego (in case you needed reminding) can be our enemy and, occasionally, our friend.
Previously, and I've no shame admitting it, I operated from ego, where my competitive instinct compelled me to win every argument etc.
It was draining.
I'd like to think that's all gone away, but I'd be peddling a big fat lie in advancing that sort of case.
But, in apprehending the enormity of my (I think) compelling 'everything changes' view, I now find that, more often than not, it collapses in on itself as soon as the urge to win arises.
What do I mean?
Well, the moment I feel a tension to win, I try to drop the desire and place myself (no, there's no thing to do that — i.e. a ghostly homunculus) in the position where I know that, in the very next moment, I'll feel more relaxed, more at peace with what's arising.
In fact, it's very likely I won't feel a damn thing because nothing really matters!
I can't believe I've just written that — and I'm going to leave it there for posterity — because it sounds so, well, egotistical.
Truth is, ego is part and parcel of who we are.
In spiritual circles, it's seen as a bad thing and something to eviscerate from our subconsicous, or wherever it lives, but I think, we'd be better off acknowledging that it's part of the human condition whilst at the same time opening our hearts to what is, rather than what we'd like something to be.
Perhaps, then, from that wide-open, loving ❤️ space we might see the world anew.