“I exist as I am, that is enough,
If no other in the world be aware I sit content,
And if each and all be aware I sit content.
One world is aware, and by the far the largest to me, and that is myself,
And whether I come to my own today or in ten thousand or ten million years,
I can cheerfully take it now, or with equal cheerfulness, I can wait.”
― Walt Whitman
I didn't quite make the 5 am cut, but what the hell, I'm up, I'm awake, and I'm alive.
The coffee is poured, and I've got the music playing.
How was your weekend?
Did it live up to your expectations?
Mine came and went — as always.
Life, eh, it never stops!
Today, I'll be on my high 'legal' horse — for all the good it does me. I know there are a few things to do, but I'm up for it. Even if there isn't much to do, I've got plans, always plans, and I'm not going to waste a single, conspicuous moment twiddling my thumbs or whatever it is my dumbed-down ego expects of me.
I know it's becoming my light motif, but we are here, alive to this moment and that, my dearest and nearest, is all we'll ever have. Oh sure, it's OK to ruminate on all that might be different but nothing's going to change in this moment. It can't: it just happens with or without you ❤️.
(Do you remember the U2 song by the same name?)
But you know me by now: I'm a straight-up sort of guy and what you see is what you get. If you were to meet in any situation — suited and booted, walking my dog or hanging out with my friends — I'd be the same person. Truth is, there are no hiding places in life, and sooner or later we all get found out. Don't we?
I'm really enjoying this phase of my life. Of course, I would never have known what the 50s would feel like, no more so than, as a small kid, I'd know what it felt to be an adult but there's a cadence to this episode that feels right. Sure, I could do less; sure, I could stop pretending I'm 18 years old; and, absolutely, I could stop taking things (still) so damn seriously but that would be like abdicating to this one, amazing life.
Anyhow, what are you up to this week?
I've no plans outside of work. No doubt, daughter #3 will want to go training in the gym and I think my sister-in-law is visiting us for a few days. As normal, she'll take over the house but I'm used to it by now. I'm also seeing my mate Dave Smith MBE — he of the extraordinary talent that's nearly finished a piece of glasswork for Ludlow Blunt in Brooklyn.
Time to get my skates on.
All my love,