It's 5.04 am as I type these words.
Coffee ☕ poured.
And I'm listening to Dear Mama by Tough Rhymes.
There's an energy here but no expression beyond wanting to type these few words.
“To study the Buddha Way is to study the self. To study the self is to forget the self. To forget the self is to be actualized by myriad things. When actualized by myriad things, your body and mind as well as the bodies and minds of others drop away. No trace of enlightenment remains, and this no-trace continues endlessly.”
You're probably sick to death of me saying it, but we're here, and however sh*t our life, there will (I very much hope) be another day.
That said, last night, like many I've had to face, I thought of those people no longer here, particularly my uncle, Adrian; he died nearly 20 years ago, aged 43. He was quite a character — as they say, he burned bright during his brief life.
What are you doing today?
Me: same as yesterday etc.
I'm up for it.
But I'm keeping quiet at work — almost monk-like.
Frankly, I don't need the attention.
Previously, I'd have been shouting the odds about the way the business is being run. Yes, believe it or not, it wasn't that long ago that I held myself as a legal consultant. I was going to say management consultant but I wasn't comfortable with the label I ascribed to my trade and would have been even less so with the pretentiousness that comes with saying you can 'manage' anything. In my experience, you can't manage people (which is the business): they either do something because they want to or they don't.
I'd be lying though if sometimes it's more than I can do to bite hard on my angry-sounding lips. But, there's so much ego, I just let it go; and in any event, much like so much of my work (*yawns*), it's made no difference. And I'm fine with that.
The bigger picture is, of course, the state of the planet; and any business worth its salt would have radically transformed itself by now, but like most people, we carry on living the same or a similar life because it's impossible not to do otherwise. Oh sure, we can cut out plastic bags, generate more renewable energy and drive a bit less but overall, despite the climate change and loss of biodiversity predictions, nothing much has changed. Ditto companies across the world.
Sorry, I'm sliding into a minor rant.
None of this matters, really. Life flows, and we don't will our wants. That means, whatever happens, happens. That's not me articulating woo-woo speak, it's the truth. Mine at least.
Anyhow, onwards, forever onwards.
Have a wonderful day.
Much love ❤️, Ju