When was the last time, publicly or privately, you showed up as true self?
I mean: all body, mind and soul.
Too many of us — me included! — default to a place of safety; and sometimes, particularly if you're likely to put yourself in peril, there's a good reason why the true you doesn't step out the shadows.
But then again, do we use that (sometimes...) as an excuse not to speak our mind, act the fool or do something absent any purpose, motive or reason?
Perhaps my age is beginning to show, but the older I get, the more I see people revert to a place where showing up isn't just unnecessary, it's positively frowned upon. And I'm not just referring to the workplace, I mean all areas of our life.
Don't get me wrong. Some people would do well not to push the showing up envelope too much; they end up resembling a solipsistic, faux version of someone else.
Showing up (for the avoidance of doubt) doesn't just mean to be all alive, it also means to show up in our paid work. To enter the space of beginner's mind, which, trust me, is not where most people start. They expect to know everything in the shortest amount of time and if that's not possible, well, Google isn't far away.
And then there's showing up to do our real work — e.g. writing, art or connecting on a higher level. It's very easy to give up particularly or more especially when Resistance comes on stage — see The War of Art by Steven Pressfield. Habit formation is key; little and often is the maxim I'd adopt.
To be clear, previously I'd have thought all this showing up lark a personal choice. In short, if we were slacking, we could will ourselves to do something we didn't want to do by dint of hard work, persistence and passion.
Not any longer.
It's only something that's dawned on me in the last decade but we don't will our will, and, therefore, if you're expressed to move etc. you will. If you're not, then you won't. And yes, I realise that sounds quite fatalistic but it's a truth. If you don't believe me, go back to the root of any decision you've apparently made and see if there was a 'me' controlling what you did or didn't do. You'll struggle — a lot.
Anyhow, have a wonderful day.
Blessings and deep bows,