“We seldom realize, for example that our most private thoughts and emotions are not actually our own. For we think in terms of languages and images which we did not invent, but which were given to us by our society.” -- Alan Watts
I want to travel.
But it's more than that.
I want to change my worldview.
Yes, I love Devon -- I see it as my spiritual home -- but I know that my worldview is shrinking to the point where, if I'm not careful, everything will be codified by my current locus.
I didn't start off the year with any desires to travel, and I know that I'm already committed to a number of different projects that will make leaving the country hard, but there's this slow creep of expectation that continues to follow me round everywhere I go.
I know I should be proud of my culture, but as I settle on the truest version of me, not the faux "show me the money" version, I recognise that so little of what I hold dear to me is discussed, given air time or accepted as anything other than slightly odd or curious. And I'm not talking about anything exceptionally whacky but merely issues like putting nature first in our lives/businesses, sustainability, defining what's enough, living together as a community and not apart, greed and challenging the accepted career path, but most of all, questioning what it means to live a higher purpose life.
As I see it, right now, we're all stuck to the same wheel as our parents and grandparents. Oh sure, many people count this as no more than survival mode but a large part of that is driven by our bias towards capitalism as opposed to a gifts-based society or one at least more equal. If I have a vision it's for us to live as one community where we exchange our physical and emotional labour for things that matter and not a set of unnecessary toys that are literally killing our planet. I recognise I'm going out on a limb in even mentioning some of this stuff, but I long for the day where I can go into a room of people and not be confronted with the same mechanical conversation premised on having more without so much as a passing nod to our glorious planet. Shame on us all. (You have to question that without the driver of global warming would any of us be drawn to change any of our consumption behaviours?)
Perhaps this is just a phase, and like all phases it too will pass. But I don't think so.
What was an inkling a few years ago, is ripening to a half-decent scratch that I feel compelled to act on.
Onwards, forever onwards.