But feelings were considered a kind of wind, and there was no need to freeze the wind, but better to thaw the clouds of hate into a rain of tears that fed the thirsty ground of the human soul. If feelings of revenge were occulted and not listened to, they certainly would freeze and reappear toxically and violently later. Change they must. — Martín Prechtel, The Smell of Rain on Dust (p. 81)
"Instructions for living a life: Pay attention. Be astonished. Tell about it." — Mary Oliver
Seriously, I could leave it there.
Then again.
Perhaps sit with the few words from Mary Oliver's poem, Sometimes, and consider if you have everything you'll ever need to lead a good life — rich with meaning.
But we seldom do.
Pay attention!
Instead, we're somewhere else, never fully present to what the moment offers.
Then again, what's arising now is what arising (as tautological as that sounds), and if that means you're off on another anger-fuelled rant, melancholic episode or you're suffused with grief, then that's where you're at.
I could go further and say that even though it doesn't feel the same as when we focus and bring all our attention to the thing at hand — even the ugly thoughts that suck our energy — it's still arguable that we're paying attention but perhaps not astonished, save to the extent that we can't seem to ride a less anxious wave.
I suppose what I'm saying is don't be fooled into believing that you're life has to be one way only and not anything or everything else — i.e. it's very often a mess.
Indeed, to my mind, and you may not agree, there is way too much marketing and brand identification with topics such as mindfulness and meditation to be really useful. Much better to admit to being the full catastrophe!
All that said, if we can get out of heads, meaning we stop overthinking everything, then there's at least a lightness to life or a little less darkness.
Sat, 13:14: “Man is the ultimate tragic being, because he has learned enough about the Earth to realise the Earth would be better off without the presence of humankind.” ― Peter Wessel Zapffe
Sat, 15:41: About to start watching No Country for Old Men. Seems ages ago since I last saw this.
Sat, 17:45: I wonder when the tipping point is supposed to arrive? To be honest, I think it happened a long time ago -- culturally at least -- and we simply didn't see it.
Sun, 06:07: "Cultural history, as well as observation of ourselves and others, allow the following answer: Most people learn to save themselves by artificially limiting the content of consciousness." — Peter Wessel Zapffe, The Last Messiah