The awakening to the mystery of life is a revolutionary event; in it an old world is destroyed so that a new and better one may take its place, and all things are affected by the change. We ourselves have become mysterious strangers in our own eyes and tremblingly we ask ourselves who we are, whence we came, whither we are bound. Are we the being who is called by our name, whom we thought we knew so well in the past? Are we the form we see in the mirror, our body, offspring of our parents? Who, then, is it that feels and thinks within us, that wills and struggles, plans and dreams, that can oppose and control this physical body which we thought to be ourselves? We wake up to realize that we have never known ourselves, that we have lived as in a blind dream of ceaseless activity in which there was never a moment of self recollection. — J. J. Van Der Leeuw, The Conquest of Illusion
“We went down into the silent garden. Dawn is the time when nothing breathes, the hour of silence. Everything is transfixed, only the light moves.”
― Leonora Carrington
I've been awake since 3.30 am thinking about my father-in-law, who I left, late yesterday, after spending all day with him.
My wife has just sent me a text to say he's still here. If you knew his current condition, you'd realise how immense that is, not in a heroic way but how much he still wants to live, despite the fact that his body is shutting down with increasing rapidity. It would be wrong to make any predictions but with each passing hour — and I hope later this morning to again sit with him — I know that he's very likely to slip away.
God bless you Brian.
Before I start this post, can I just say a huge thank you to everyone who's Tweeted, DM'd or messaged me with their kind wishes and love. It means the world to me. I'm sorry if I've not responded or not very well, but I hope you'll understand that, right now, my mind is somewhere else.( Collapse )
- Sun, 12:13: Just opened this. One of the best things I subscribe to. https://t.co/pwOcxP8YqU
- Sun, 12:19: @M_Z_Harrison I'm not sure if you've listened to this but there's a wonderful overlap between nature (owls and deer… https://t.co/Is65ppEozR
- Sun, 14:30: Starting to read Desert Solitaire by Edward Abbey. Fantastic book. Smitten already. 📖
- Mon, 05:23: Night Tracks - Music for the evening - BBC Sounds https://t.co/vwpPRXJam3 this morning's music. https://t.co/jpeAJtJNhG
- Mon, 07:15: A quiet space https://t.co/yklBzLSZ66 / today's little blog offering https://t.co/I6LqNdr2ix
- Mon, 07:19: This morning's one picture 🌿🙏 https://t.co/KY3I60Bord
- Mon, 07:25: Watch @JuSummerhayes's broadcast: a quiet spot https://t.co/3uhuHPOiJT
- Mon, 07:59: I'm reading Edward Abbey's book, Desert Solitaire. I'm struck again by how much has changed in my lifetime — the bo… https://t.co/doGUoOMjCn
- Mon, 11:49: It's not often I feel lost but I do today.