January 14th, 2020

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Just this

Good morning friends.

I'm up; I'm ready for the day; and, yes, coffee — always coffee — is poured and placed by my keyboard ready to be drunk one small mouthful at a time.

And this morning's little ode is:

just this.

Oh, god, here he goes again.

No, seriously: this is what's coming up; in fact, I woke at precisely 2.10 am and the post was already written but I knew that I needed more sleep so, once I'd done my ablutions, I promptly lay down again and (thankfully) went back to sleep.

The thing is, I've been to a lot of talks by non-dual speakers; Tony Parsons was by far the most entertaining but that's for another post.

And they all said the same thing apropos the meaning of, well, everything:

"...there is just this."

To be the best of my knowledge, they weren't seriously challenged to answer the question: yes, but what is 'this' you're referring to?

Sorry, I should have said: I doubt very much if very many people are interested to explore life this deeply. They've not enough going on in their lives without having to constantly navel-gaze. But, I suppose, you do get to a stage in your life where you need to know more than how to get through the day and the one that follows. In fact, from my limited experience, most people, when asked, will be interested to know:

What's my purpose?
Why am I here?
What's it (life) all about?

Back to my this-ness point.

What's it all about?

The essence of this quote, perhaps:

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“The next morning, Malcolm thought long and hard before waking up, for he had come to recognise over the past quarter of a century that rather less can go wrong if you are asleep.”
― Tom Holt, Expecting Someone Taller 

We go to work, do our thing and, if we're lucky, the next day get to do it all over again 🥱.

But at what cost?


No, not this one but the one we should be living — the one we're called to, perhaps.

But of course, as I said in today's earlier post (I hope it was clear) the way we're expressed, is the way we're expressed

Do you feel it though?

The pull to do something more enlivening?

I do. 

And I fear it's getting worse.

This year, aged 53, I'll have worked every year for 40 years!! In the beginning, it was only a Christmas and Summer-holiday job, but, thereafter, I've been glued to the hamster wheel, hammering out the days in the hope of...?

I'm not sure.


I've tried that many things, I no longer know, or even care, why I do what I do.

Argghh, that's not accurate.

I don't and never have willed any of this.

I'm here because I'm here but the fact I keep watching Ben Fogle interview and stay with outliers — i.e. those people who've genuinely escaped the rat race — and my (current) obsession with going on the road, suggest to me, based on my previous experience of pulling the pin on one job and then another, that what I'm now doing is another step in the direction of another life.

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