December 30th, 2015

Making sense of it all

South Brent, Devon

“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope.” ― Thomas Merton

It's a war.

Not the usual variety, but the inner terrain.

You know, where you know how you would like it to be, but it's never that way.

Never.

(Oh God, how I wish I could reconcile the life I wish for, versus the life I've inherited...)

But perhaps if it were otherwise, we'd find something else to despair about or condemn.

I don't know about you, but apart from wanting to fix everything, it seems there's never a day where something feels out of kilter with a life of serenity, peace and contemplation.

I know this is terribly vague, but what I'm getting at is the fact that we see the world as one thing but experience 'it' as something else.

And I don't mean to correct what we've got but to be at peace with the way things are and not constantly overreact.

If you look back at your own life, are you trying to recreate what you had, or envision and manifest something anew? In my case, it's certainly not the former and, as regards the latter, it's not a case of work in progress but, instead, making sense of why things seem so bloody hard.

But, of course, it's me ... or rather my reaction to the present moment or situation.

If I have a desire for anything, it's to break asunder these traumatic habits (for me and everyone else) and to be at peace with how things are and everything around me.

Not as we know it

“Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Right now in the UK, we're being battered by the weather -- it's set to get even worse.

No doubt, it will descend into farce as one political party tries to outdo the other in the blame game; but the truth of the matter is that we are nature, and nature is us, and we have to accept that our modus operandi (from the Industrial Revolution onwards) has been causative of something -- global warming seems the most likely culprit.

If we accept that we cannot row back to another bygone era -- our quaint view of long summers and mild, not-too-grizzly-winters -- then what we all need to do is plan our lives for extremes (hot and cold), seriously mend our consumerist ways and get used to a different way of existing with nature.

If we don't then no doubt this extreme event will morph into something with much greater significance economically, socially and environmentally.

And yes, I greatly fear for my children and the generations to come who will have to clear up our mess or, if that's not possible, live on a world that looks significantly different to the one I inherited.

Shantaram

Possibly my all time favourite quote by Gregory David Roberts:

“For this is what we do. Put one foot forward and then the other. Lift our eyes to the snarl and smile of the world once more. Think. Act. feel. Add our little consequence to the tides of good and evil that flood and drain the world. Drag our shadowed crosses into the hope of another night. Push our brave hearts into the promise of a new day. With love; the passionate search for truth other than our own. With longing; the pure, ineffable yearning to be saved. For so long as fate keeps waiting, we live on.”