“A path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you . . . Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary. Then ask yourself alone, one question . . . Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn't it is of no use.” ― Carlos Castaneda
I'm at work, but off for a funeral this morning. My cashier's husband sadly passed away last week, and a few of us in the office are off to pay our last respects. (I never met Kevin, but I feel I know him well through the words and affection of my cashier -- a lovely lady who will be left on her own with her son who has learning difficulties. I can't begin to imagine, aged 57, the loss of someone so close. God, I hope I never have to face something so painful.)
I'm back now as I write this -- I'm glad I didn't post my post before I left -- and can report that the service was a lovely affair. Lots of wonderful ditties and kind words. I know it might sound selfish but all I could think about was my own life, and what I still wanted to achieve.
I've not yet posted my blog post, which I've posted on a Monday for the least few months. It's deliberate, if for no other reason than, despite being over 3,000 words in length, it still doesn't feel right. I know I need to polish it, particularly around the thesis that I've banged on about for all these years -- awaken to true self.
I wrote today's morning pages (by hand) at about 6am. I also read and brushed up on a few grammar issues that I know will make me a better writer. I think we should all brush up on our grammar once in a while if only because we lose touch with the nuances of the written word that would make us all better writers in our everyday dealings.
I'm not sure what I'll do today save the usual work stuff, which means sitting at a computer trying to make sense of my life.
Right now, I feel drawn to return to the world of speaking, consulting and coaching but this time focused on the small business market. If nothing else, I feel I could make the biggest difference in my work, and not be hemmed in by social media or anything with a legal theme. My thesis is similar to the E-Myth namely, we all spend too much time doing it, doing it, doing it, when all of us should put in place the necessary systems to enable us to go to work on the business and not exist in it. But we'll see because a big part of me doesn't think this goes anywhere near answering the fundamental questions that still remain unanswered -- at least to me.
Anyhow, onwards, forever onwards.