“I insist on a lot of time being spent, almost every day, to just sit and think. That is very uncommon in American business. I read and think. So I do more reading and thinking, and make less impulse decisions than most people in business. I do it because I like this kind of life.”
I’m desperately trying to find a routine, which seems totally preposterous, given that I’ve only just moved house. But it’s the truth.
Mornings, evenings and during the day seem to elude me. That said, I still manage to fill my day, but it doesn’t feel right.
But...I’ll get there. I always do.
I’m not going to give up on my morning ritual of writing morning pages or reading (I’m reading Catcher in the Rye at the moment and New Seeds of Contemplation). I know that I need to get up earlier -- 5am is the best time for me -- but right now I’m allowing myself a bit of leeway, until I know that I don’t have to get up and wade through the endless crap that seems to lay in every nook and cranny around the house.
We’re due to go on holiday to Portugal fairly soon (I’m being a bit coy about giving you the exact date just in case someone is watching -- security and all that guff; actually, we’ve nothing worth nicking unless that is you want to wade through two million boxes and endless amounts of childhood material). I’m looking forward to the break and the change of scenary. I’m sure it will do us all the world of good. I wish we weren’t having to take two cars but needs must.
Work is work at the moment. I’m still not ready to make any decisive move either towards or in the direction of something new or to make another leap into the world of self-employment. If I’m honest, having ditched the whole social media thing, I’m not sure what I want to do. Leadership training? Spiritual talks? Writing -- yes please.